Thursday, July 27, 2006
Bummed
I don't know if it's the move (one week from today), the impending start of school, or just be being a loser, but I've been really bummed for the last week or so. It's on and off, but last night it just hit me really hard. I think it's mostly that I'm super lonely and at the ripe age of 23 feel like I'm never going to find love. I know I'm still young, but I need a date. Some little glimmer of hope that I could eventually be loved. I know I've got friends who are awesome, but I'm to the point lately that I really need something else. I'm sick of being independent and strong...I want someone to share my life with. Of course this all depends on me not clamming up and being uber-shy whenever anyone who is eligible comes around. I always end up feeling like Ginny around Harry in the first few HP books. I'm just at a loss right now.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
PROCRASTINATION
Um yeah, I'm procrastinating big time! I dedicated today to packing up part of my apartment (I even know which exact parts...), and yet here I sit in the White House at 4:12pm, and I haven't packed a thing. Let me give some excuses:
1. I've been with LaRae and Katelyn so much in the days before this, and I've been getting up super early to go with LaRae to work out at 9am, and then I've been going to bed late, so this morning I actually slept in until noon, so I got a late start.
2. I went to drop off LaRae and Randy's van at their house after I woke up, and that took a small chunk out of my day.
3. I decided while I was out to go to the other end of Lewisville and pick up my laptop from the school, and I got stuck there for over an hour talking to my department head about some staff development stuff as well as the TI software she put on my computer.
4. Finally, I had my laptop in my car and couldn't pass up the free wireless at the White House, so I stopped here to put off packing...
Really I'm about to go back and pack books and decorations and take down everything on my walls. I learned in college that once you take the stuff off the walls, the place feels less homey and makes it easier to be motivated to pack. My dining room is about to be home base to all that is ready to go out the door.
Yesterday I did actually pack up a huge load of junk to take to CCA. Go figure the stuff I couldn't bear to get rid of a year ago is "junk" now. PS - I've got a microwave, barely used, with glass spinning thing inside, in like mint condition, I'm trying to get rid off...it takes up storage space. I'd sell it for $25. (or $30 if you feel generous!)
On the plus side of life, the payraise they were going to to give us is now larger, so I'll be getting a car (midsize SUV really) next summer. Yea! for that. After driving LaRae's van, I feel like I'm sitting on the road to drive my car.
Last night I got to go to the comic book store with Paul. Fun stuff. I told him after we left, "I put on lipstick for this, and all I got was married men and super nerds!" Yeah...I'm a dork. We also had a really good class last night at church that made me think more about what I believe. Sometimes I feel that in my search for what I believe, I have ended with no clue as to what I believe at all! Does that make sense? I'm at this place of unrest where I'm trying to figure out what I believe based on what's in the Bible and weed out what I believe because I was raised in a Conservative Chruch of Christ...not that their teachings were bad, but I feel quite a bit that I thought was a "salvation issue" when I was being raised isn't actually one at all. Part of me is trying to really open my eyes to the truth while another part just wants to withdraw into the safety of my parents' faith and beliefs. Sigh.
I better go pack now. I have nothing of real value to say on here. Hope ya'll are staying cool.
1. I've been with LaRae and Katelyn so much in the days before this, and I've been getting up super early to go with LaRae to work out at 9am, and then I've been going to bed late, so this morning I actually slept in until noon, so I got a late start.
2. I went to drop off LaRae and Randy's van at their house after I woke up, and that took a small chunk out of my day.
3. I decided while I was out to go to the other end of Lewisville and pick up my laptop from the school, and I got stuck there for over an hour talking to my department head about some staff development stuff as well as the TI software she put on my computer.
4. Finally, I had my laptop in my car and couldn't pass up the free wireless at the White House, so I stopped here to put off packing...
Really I'm about to go back and pack books and decorations and take down everything on my walls. I learned in college that once you take the stuff off the walls, the place feels less homey and makes it easier to be motivated to pack. My dining room is about to be home base to all that is ready to go out the door.
Yesterday I did actually pack up a huge load of junk to take to CCA. Go figure the stuff I couldn't bear to get rid of a year ago is "junk" now. PS - I've got a microwave, barely used, with glass spinning thing inside, in like mint condition, I'm trying to get rid off...it takes up storage space. I'd sell it for $25. (or $30 if you feel generous!)
On the plus side of life, the payraise they were going to to give us is now larger, so I'll be getting a car (midsize SUV really) next summer. Yea! for that. After driving LaRae's van, I feel like I'm sitting on the road to drive my car.
Last night I got to go to the comic book store with Paul. Fun stuff. I told him after we left, "I put on lipstick for this, and all I got was married men and super nerds!" Yeah...I'm a dork. We also had a really good class last night at church that made me think more about what I believe. Sometimes I feel that in my search for what I believe, I have ended with no clue as to what I believe at all! Does that make sense? I'm at this place of unrest where I'm trying to figure out what I believe based on what's in the Bible and weed out what I believe because I was raised in a Conservative Chruch of Christ...not that their teachings were bad, but I feel quite a bit that I thought was a "salvation issue" when I was being raised isn't actually one at all. Part of me is trying to really open my eyes to the truth while another part just wants to withdraw into the safety of my parents' faith and beliefs. Sigh.
I better go pack now. I have nothing of real value to say on here. Hope ya'll are staying cool.
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Ten Minutes
No, silly, that's not how long it will take you to read this post! I'm boiling eggs to go in LaRae and I's tuna salad (for the museum tomorrow), and they'll be done in 10 minutes, hence that's how long I have to write a fabulously boring blog update.
So I've been back in town like 2 full days, and I'm sitting here trying to figure out where the time has gone. You see as the first day of staff development approaches, I need to be able to account for each precious second that I have left in my summer of freedom!
Yesterday I got up early and ran a couple of errands (one happened to be a small classroom necessities shopping spree at Staples), and then I headed to work for a few hours at the school. We're making a notebook of our curriculum for all the math teachers since we don't use a book. Because I'm super organized and have all the material we used this year (with keys for all of it) in notebooks (for Algebra I and Algebra AB), we had my notebooks copied by an office aide, and then yesterday I worked to combine all of the material. I had separate notebooks for the separate classes but all organized by unit, but we wanted all of the materials by unit to take out the repeat sheets (not as many repeats as I thought there would be though). I ran a bit more of a shopping spree after work, and then I enjoyed an afternoon of play with Katelyn, and I went downtown with LaRae to buy Ringling Bros circus tickets at the AA Center. Katelyn got a free ticket for "reading" 5 books, and I, being the insane(ly fun) aunt that I am, decided an aunt trip to the circus that truly lives up to it's motto of being the "happiest place on earth" would be the best idea in the world! Really I think it's going to be a lot of fun. We're going on July 29th for the 11:30 am show. Thankfully LaRae and Randy are driving us because we all know that if I drove you may never see Katelyn and I again. Anyways, I loved getting to go to church and catch up with my friends (all of whom I missed a ton!), and I was more than happy to have someone to make a comic book store run with. (Thanks Paul and Jennifer!) I just wish I had had more comic books to buy!
Today I got to spend the day with Katelyn, LaRae, and K's little friend, Charlotte. Such sweet little girls! We had a blast, and after dinner, LaRae and I got pedi's. I needed the time to relax and literally put up my feet. I'm about to go home to a bubble bath and a good book: Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (for the second time this summer...I missed a lot!)
Tomorrow I'm going to the science museum in Fort Worth with LaRae and Katelyn's play group. That should be fun. Tomorrow night I really want to start packing some. I need to get a few boxes done, but the more I've thought about it, I've realized I'm going to be really bored during the days that LaRae and family are out of town after Wednesday, so I'll have plenty of time to pack then. Besides I need to enjoy the little bit of summer I have left with them. I now know where the Lewisville Public Library is, so I'm going to get a library card next week and start using it. I can't wait! I don't know what's taken me so long...Perhaps the crazy 10-12 hour days I put in at the school last fall or the lack of time I had in the spring to do anything but plan the Math TAKS class or maybe it was the multitude of books I had available to borrow from the Library of LaRae. Hmmmm.... :-)
I better go. We just sent Randy to the store for tuna, carrot chips, and creamy Italian dressing and then I ran out to stop him to ask him to get chocolate teddy grahams as well. He laughed and asked if I was sure one of us wasn't pregnant bc that was a very random list of stuff. LOL. Yeah...pretty sure there. If only it was possible for me to be pregnant. Sigh. God has given me a great job and a great life here in Dallas with a loving family (church and by blood) and the sweetest niece an aunt could want. He's given me a nice home and some good, loyal friends. I just hope that He will soon give me someone to share all of this with...
Good night!
So I've been back in town like 2 full days, and I'm sitting here trying to figure out where the time has gone. You see as the first day of staff development approaches, I need to be able to account for each precious second that I have left in my summer of freedom!
Yesterday I got up early and ran a couple of errands (one happened to be a small classroom necessities shopping spree at Staples), and then I headed to work for a few hours at the school. We're making a notebook of our curriculum for all the math teachers since we don't use a book. Because I'm super organized and have all the material we used this year (with keys for all of it) in notebooks (for Algebra I and Algebra AB), we had my notebooks copied by an office aide, and then yesterday I worked to combine all of the material. I had separate notebooks for the separate classes but all organized by unit, but we wanted all of the materials by unit to take out the repeat sheets (not as many repeats as I thought there would be though). I ran a bit more of a shopping spree after work, and then I enjoyed an afternoon of play with Katelyn, and I went downtown with LaRae to buy Ringling Bros circus tickets at the AA Center. Katelyn got a free ticket for "reading" 5 books, and I, being the insane(ly fun) aunt that I am, decided an aunt trip to the circus that truly lives up to it's motto of being the "happiest place on earth" would be the best idea in the world! Really I think it's going to be a lot of fun. We're going on July 29th for the 11:30 am show. Thankfully LaRae and Randy are driving us because we all know that if I drove you may never see Katelyn and I again. Anyways, I loved getting to go to church and catch up with my friends (all of whom I missed a ton!), and I was more than happy to have someone to make a comic book store run with. (Thanks Paul and Jennifer!) I just wish I had had more comic books to buy!
Today I got to spend the day with Katelyn, LaRae, and K's little friend, Charlotte. Such sweet little girls! We had a blast, and after dinner, LaRae and I got pedi's. I needed the time to relax and literally put up my feet. I'm about to go home to a bubble bath and a good book: Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (for the second time this summer...I missed a lot!)
Tomorrow I'm going to the science museum in Fort Worth with LaRae and Katelyn's play group. That should be fun. Tomorrow night I really want to start packing some. I need to get a few boxes done, but the more I've thought about it, I've realized I'm going to be really bored during the days that LaRae and family are out of town after Wednesday, so I'll have plenty of time to pack then. Besides I need to enjoy the little bit of summer I have left with them. I now know where the Lewisville Public Library is, so I'm going to get a library card next week and start using it. I can't wait! I don't know what's taken me so long...Perhaps the crazy 10-12 hour days I put in at the school last fall or the lack of time I had in the spring to do anything but plan the Math TAKS class or maybe it was the multitude of books I had available to borrow from the Library of LaRae. Hmmmm.... :-)
I better go. We just sent Randy to the store for tuna, carrot chips, and creamy Italian dressing and then I ran out to stop him to ask him to get chocolate teddy grahams as well. He laughed and asked if I was sure one of us wasn't pregnant bc that was a very random list of stuff. LOL. Yeah...pretty sure there. If only it was possible for me to be pregnant. Sigh. God has given me a great job and a great life here in Dallas with a loving family (church and by blood) and the sweetest niece an aunt could want. He's given me a nice home and some good, loyal friends. I just hope that He will soon give me someone to share all of this with...
Good night!
Monday, July 10, 2006
Packed!
I finished packing just now. Whew! What a job! Mom and Dad had a suitcase of LaRae and Randy's here that I was able to pack full. It apparently is a case that gets sent back and forth with things like our junk from here and Christmas presents. Good thing to have. I got a TON of books in that suitcase. It weighed 56 lbs when we first weighed it, but we got it down to 48, so counting on some difference in the scales, I'm hoping it will work. If not I've got a set of books I can take out real quick and tuck under my arm that will bring down the weight. The other suitcase (the small one I came with) is around 40 lbs. I got two high school yearbooks in it. I wanted my freshman yearbook for my classroom since I teach freshmen, and then my next fave was my Senior year, so I got it in. They weight a lot, so I'll bring a few each time maybe. I never did get my Junior and Senior yearbooks in college...didn't even get my picture taken! Oh well. I've got yearbooks back to 3rd grade!
Tomorrow morning I'm getting up and putting my +/- 90 lbs of luggage in the car and going to work with Mom until we have to leave for the airport. I'm telling you, if I was on this season of Real World/Road Rules Challenge, I'd be in exile, and I'd be screwed! Too much luggage! Anyways, my bookcases in my new apartment will be much more full of books, and they will now include more classics. I'm thinking on putting my books in my bedroom this time though. Maybe one bookcase can go in the living room, but I don't have one that matches my furniture, so that may have to wait until I can afford one. At least once I move I'll be able to carry things like bookcases in myself! Yea! Can't wait!
I've got a long day tomorrow of traveling and such. Work and church on Wednesday, and I really want to pack a box or two as well. Thursday I've got to take care of setting up a walk through and painting in my new apartment, and I also want to pack more then. By the end of this week I want to go to the pool at least twice too!
Summer is ending, but I'm finally looking forward to going back to work. I get a charge about the idea of setting up my classroom for another year and getting my procedures and discipline methods better this time! I'm so glad I decided to stay at ----- another year, so I can settle in more and not be the newbie. There's something nice about going back to a job you really finally know.
LaRae and I have been watching Treasure Hunters for an internet survey company, and I've grown to really like it. Anyone else watch it? I'm ready for the Fogal's and their whiney daughter to go, but I must admit, the self-proclaimed "Geniuses" team is annoying to me too. Thank goodness the Wild Hanlons are gone though. They were painful to watch. Hell's Kitchen has been a fave of mine since it started last season. Food and drama! Fun! I haven't seen it tonight, but Sara and her backstabbing make me want to scream. Has anyone seen the previews for NBC's Heroes? I think I'm going to start watching that. It looks odd enough to be given a chance. Besides, Commander in Chief was cancelled (SOOOO SAD about that...seriously), so I need something to take it's spot. :-) There's my TV synopsis...not much really. What are ya'll watching to pass the summer slump in shows? I mean really, isn't TV broken up into Lost showing new episodes and then all the times in between?
Tomorrow morning I'm getting up and putting my +/- 90 lbs of luggage in the car and going to work with Mom until we have to leave for the airport. I'm telling you, if I was on this season of Real World/Road Rules Challenge, I'd be in exile, and I'd be screwed! Too much luggage! Anyways, my bookcases in my new apartment will be much more full of books, and they will now include more classics. I'm thinking on putting my books in my bedroom this time though. Maybe one bookcase can go in the living room, but I don't have one that matches my furniture, so that may have to wait until I can afford one. At least once I move I'll be able to carry things like bookcases in myself! Yea! Can't wait!
I've got a long day tomorrow of traveling and such. Work and church on Wednesday, and I really want to pack a box or two as well. Thursday I've got to take care of setting up a walk through and painting in my new apartment, and I also want to pack more then. By the end of this week I want to go to the pool at least twice too!
Summer is ending, but I'm finally looking forward to going back to work. I get a charge about the idea of setting up my classroom for another year and getting my procedures and discipline methods better this time! I'm so glad I decided to stay at ----- another year, so I can settle in more and not be the newbie. There's something nice about going back to a job you really finally know.
LaRae and I have been watching Treasure Hunters for an internet survey company, and I've grown to really like it. Anyone else watch it? I'm ready for the Fogal's and their whiney daughter to go, but I must admit, the self-proclaimed "Geniuses" team is annoying to me too. Thank goodness the Wild Hanlons are gone though. They were painful to watch. Hell's Kitchen has been a fave of mine since it started last season. Food and drama! Fun! I haven't seen it tonight, but Sara and her backstabbing make me want to scream. Has anyone seen the previews for NBC's Heroes? I think I'm going to start watching that. It looks odd enough to be given a chance. Besides, Commander in Chief was cancelled (SOOOO SAD about that...seriously), so I need something to take it's spot. :-) There's my TV synopsis...not much really. What are ya'll watching to pass the summer slump in shows? I mean really, isn't TV broken up into Lost showing new episodes and then all the times in between?
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Stone Mountain
Does anyone else find that name sort of redundant or rather "duh-like"?
We just got back from Stone Mountain, and as always the laser show was bigger and better than even. I loved the feeling of Southern Pride that I felt coursing though my veins as I watched the end of the show. Sigh. Anyways, good times. I feel like I've been thouroughly indulged this trip with places to go and places to eat. Rather "wined and dined."
Tomorrow I'm going to try to pack as many books as the luggage weight limit will allow, and I'm going to relax during my last full day here. Now that I'm thinking about a possible 100 pounds of luggage, I'm thinking maybe I should leave those books in my car. Of course that means once I get home, I'll have to separate the books and clothing into separate suitcases again to bring the clothing upstairs, but why carry such a load if I'll just have to bring it back down again so soon?! (By the way, I'm hoping I can pack more books by filling in with clothing in 2 suitcases.) Thankfully most of my books are paperbacks. I just never really thought it out when I was moving to TX. I didn't realize how hard it would be to get my junk from GA to TX once I left it behind. Oh well...slow and steady, eh?
Well I'm about to head to bed. I couldn't hardly sleep last night, so I took a long nap this afternoon thus restarting what I like to call "Joanna's nasty little habit of totally ruining her sleep cycle until she dies." Yeah. Maybe I'll play Slingo for a while...it's only midnight!
Be back Tuesday! Yea! ... to pack ... and work ... can my summer last a bit longer than August please? Perhaps we could start back after Thanksgiving instead?
We just got back from Stone Mountain, and as always the laser show was bigger and better than even. I loved the feeling of Southern Pride that I felt coursing though my veins as I watched the end of the show. Sigh. Anyways, good times. I feel like I've been thouroughly indulged this trip with places to go and places to eat. Rather "wined and dined."
Tomorrow I'm going to try to pack as many books as the luggage weight limit will allow, and I'm going to relax during my last full day here. Now that I'm thinking about a possible 100 pounds of luggage, I'm thinking maybe I should leave those books in my car. Of course that means once I get home, I'll have to separate the books and clothing into separate suitcases again to bring the clothing upstairs, but why carry such a load if I'll just have to bring it back down again so soon?! (By the way, I'm hoping I can pack more books by filling in with clothing in 2 suitcases.) Thankfully most of my books are paperbacks. I just never really thought it out when I was moving to TX. I didn't realize how hard it would be to get my junk from GA to TX once I left it behind. Oh well...slow and steady, eh?
Well I'm about to head to bed. I couldn't hardly sleep last night, so I took a long nap this afternoon thus restarting what I like to call "Joanna's nasty little habit of totally ruining her sleep cycle until she dies." Yeah. Maybe I'll play Slingo for a while...it's only midnight!
Be back Tuesday! Yea! ... to pack ... and work ... can my summer last a bit longer than August please? Perhaps we could start back after Thanksgiving instead?
Saturday, July 08, 2006
Busy Day
I'm ready to come back to Texas. Mostly.
I got to see Kat today. That was really nice. She's 7 weeks pregnant. Yea for her! :-) I helped her decorate the church for her mom's surprise party and then went the the party. Her mom was surprised, and it was a fun little soiree. They catered with this really great BBQ place, and I got to enjoy GA pork BBQ instead of the usual TX Beef BBQ. Yum!
This evening I went to WalMart to get some pics printed off of Mom's camera card, and I ended up ticking people off. Honestly when I walked up both machines were free. Within minutes of starting, the other machine was in use and a line was formed! I had to edit a lot of the pictures (zoom in and brighten them), so it took me a while. Apparently people don't think anyone should get to use the machine longer than a second except them! Oh well. I ignored them, stood my ground, and finished my editing.
I'm off to play online with LaRae. Maybe I'll win for once...
I got to see Kat today. That was really nice. She's 7 weeks pregnant. Yea for her! :-) I helped her decorate the church for her mom's surprise party and then went the the party. Her mom was surprised, and it was a fun little soiree. They catered with this really great BBQ place, and I got to enjoy GA pork BBQ instead of the usual TX Beef BBQ. Yum!
This evening I went to WalMart to get some pics printed off of Mom's camera card, and I ended up ticking people off. Honestly when I walked up both machines were free. Within minutes of starting, the other machine was in use and a line was formed! I had to edit a lot of the pictures (zoom in and brighten them), so it took me a while. Apparently people don't think anyone should get to use the machine longer than a second except them! Oh well. I ignored them, stood my ground, and finished my editing.
I'm off to play online with LaRae. Maybe I'll win for once...
Friday, July 07, 2006
Swimmin' with the Fishes
Oi! I'm so full right now! We just got back from dinner at my favorite restaurant in town: Rossa's. I love their house linguini...so yummy! Anyways, of course I ate too much, and now I'm sitting her miserable wishing I had stopped midway.
Mom, Pam, and I went to the aquarium today. It's nice to be friends with Pam even though she's Mom's best friend. We've always had a special relationship. The aquarium was neat. It was really crowded which was annoying and slightly nerve wracking, but it was still nice. Honestly the place I could have stayed all day was watching the sea otters and the sea lions. One sea otter was swimming on her back the whole time and sucking on her paw. The lady there who was doing a commentary on the sea otters over the loud speaker said that while the sea otter liked to keep her paw in her mouth, that was not normal behavior for a sea otter. It was just sort of funny! Two of the sea lions were playing up a storm in the water and kept pressing each other up against the glass and churning up the water. They were just really cute.
We saw the 4D movie thing there as well. It sprayed water on us, had bubbles blown over us, and we even felt like the jelly fish tentacles touched us as they were on the screen. 4D is a really fun experience...if you ever get the chance to go, do it. :-) The "tentacles" (aka strings passing over us) stopped at the end of the row, where Pam was sitting by me. She somehow got slightly tangled in them...by the time it was all over, we were laughing so hard we were crying. So fun...
We've got guests (Sue and Darrell: a couple that used to go to Woodstock but moved to Florida) tonight, so I better go. We saw them at the farm, but they came for a visit on their way to Williamsburg, Virginia. Tomorrow I'm helping Kit Kat decorate for her mom's party. It's going to be really nice to see her.
I get back on Tuesday afternoon/evening. I can't wait to see you all at church on Wednesday. :-) I miss "home." I have had a lot of fun here, but I'm ready to start packing and preparing for my move. The time right before a move makes me so anxious. I'll really be better when I can pack up most of my stuff and have it waiting to leave. Wednesday I have to work at the school for a bit on a master notebook for the math department, but Thursday I hope to clear off my shelves in my living room. Wish me luck. :-) Love you all!
Mom, Pam, and I went to the aquarium today. It's nice to be friends with Pam even though she's Mom's best friend. We've always had a special relationship. The aquarium was neat. It was really crowded which was annoying and slightly nerve wracking, but it was still nice. Honestly the place I could have stayed all day was watching the sea otters and the sea lions. One sea otter was swimming on her back the whole time and sucking on her paw. The lady there who was doing a commentary on the sea otters over the loud speaker said that while the sea otter liked to keep her paw in her mouth, that was not normal behavior for a sea otter. It was just sort of funny! Two of the sea lions were playing up a storm in the water and kept pressing each other up against the glass and churning up the water. They were just really cute.
We saw the 4D movie thing there as well. It sprayed water on us, had bubbles blown over us, and we even felt like the jelly fish tentacles touched us as they were on the screen. 4D is a really fun experience...if you ever get the chance to go, do it. :-) The "tentacles" (aka strings passing over us) stopped at the end of the row, where Pam was sitting by me. She somehow got slightly tangled in them...by the time it was all over, we were laughing so hard we were crying. So fun...
We've got guests (Sue and Darrell: a couple that used to go to Woodstock but moved to Florida) tonight, so I better go. We saw them at the farm, but they came for a visit on their way to Williamsburg, Virginia. Tomorrow I'm helping Kit Kat decorate for her mom's party. It's going to be really nice to see her.
I get back on Tuesday afternoon/evening. I can't wait to see you all at church on Wednesday. :-) I miss "home." I have had a lot of fun here, but I'm ready to start packing and preparing for my move. The time right before a move makes me so anxious. I'll really be better when I can pack up most of my stuff and have it waiting to leave. Wednesday I have to work at the school for a bit on a master notebook for the math department, but Thursday I hope to clear off my shelves in my living room. Wish me luck. :-) Love you all!
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